Zelda, my Mirror

Self doubt is a perilous thing.  It seeps in, without us even being aware, causing confusion and mayhem.  Being in a contained room with my recently spayed Zelda is teaching me a lot about myself.  It’s the ole mirror mirror story I often tell.

A little backstory.  Zelda is a rescued dog who has some things she is working through. Not wanting me out of her eyesight, is one of them. 

I remember a time when I was a little girl and it was time to go out in the world. Maybe it was nursery school or dance lessons. Regardless, the fear and screaming I remember to this day. I also remember that obsessives need to continue to check in before being encouraged outward again. 

That is my Zelda.  Her constant need to see me, touch me, get reassurance drives her.  It saddens me, angers me and causes me to lose my cool on occasion. (In this case it was me telling her “no” very firmly and angrily which caused her to cower.) 

Anytime I react in a way that I wished I had done differently (in all areas of my life), there is a wonderful healing technique that helps shift your perception so guilt and shame can be released. I have used this many times with wonderful results. So I got quiet, sat still, and in my imagination, I changed the whole story of what happened regarding my reaction.

In doing this activity, I was reminded again how much I see myself in Zelda.

Instead of telling her that she is ok, I told her that WE are ok. And as I said these words to her, while loving on her and petting her, this prompted a great release and cry from me.  In addition to receiving support from two of my close friends, that was two days ago and it’s been our mantra ever since.

This morning I could see her excitement and her desire to get out. I thought about what other people do with their dog and I so wanted her to get out, somehow! This prompted a lot of doubt and questioning from myself and what I was doing. I wondered if I should take her around with me in the sling. As I brought it out and saw her shake with anxiety, and she felt my indecisiveness, I stopped and remembered.  

I need to trust in myself and project that outward.  Sure, animals pick up our vibes  But there are reasons why she and I are in containment together.  I’ve come to know Zelda. My goal is for her to heal completely from surgery with minimal stress. In addition, I want her to feel safe, loved and secure.  So we are riding this out together.

The theme that keeps coming up over and over in my own life and with regard to Zelda is to slow down, have patience and give things time. We are on a healing journey. We all are in some way. 


Animals are one of our greatest gifts on the planet. 

Here’s to many years of laughter and joy.

About the author

Kim Hiles (Dancing Feather) was born in Pennsylvania in the 1960s. Her mother was from Germany and met her father while stationed there. The family moved several times before settling in a town called Millis, Massachusetts.

Kim developed severe anxiety and depression as a child and struggled to find her way. Growing up, Kim was told by her grandmother that she wrote beautiful letters and had a way with words. Later in life, this memory would be a catalyst for sitting down and writing her memoir.

Continuing to say yes to life, Kim talks about her struggles of addiction, anxiety, depression and relationship issues, to name a few. She considers it her life mission to help empower others and uses her memoir as a way to offer guidance in living a more authentic life, following your dreams.

She has overcome much adversity and enjoys walking with others as they find their way. Kim has also co-written a young adult fantasy with her husband Will, called Little Wonders. Their pen name is K.W. Hiles.

Kim is a successful Educator, Social and Emotional Learning Specialist, Behavior Specialist, Mediator (Restorative Practices), 3rd degree Reiki Practitioner, and blogs regularly. In addition Kim offers online classes at Shamanic Passages Institute

Kim is considered highly sensitive and intuitive. Utilizing her gifts, her mission is to channel inspiration and healing and help spread some light. Empowering others to create the life of their dreams is the ultimate goal.

Kim is happily married (21+ years) and lives with her husband, son and their animal companions.

"I had a teacher who told us to go out that week and see how many Mercedes cars we noticed. When I came back I told her I had seen a lot! She asked me if I had seen any junk cars. I told her I didn’t remember seeing any. The next week she reversed it and asked us to go out and see how many junk cars we noticed. Of course we noticed a lot but didn’t remember seeing any Mercedes cars. Where is your focus? Is it on the problem or on the solution and more importantly, where would you like it to be?" -- Kim Hiles

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