This whole pandemic, getting a rescue dog, other concerns I had . . . I was filled with intense anxiety.
I started spiraling into that dark place, the place my shadow lives. It is an indescribable and lonely place filled with terror. Those were the words I used in trying to describe it to my husband.
Two weeks prior I was feeling pretty good. I was using this time to slow down, get creative, be mindful, do meditation, yoga. What happened you ask?
I made a different choice. My friend Kate and my husband pointed it out to me. They reminded me that I stopped doing all the things that make me feel good. Not only that, my thoughts were filled with negativity and I chose it. I allowed it.
It all changed when I reached out for help. I listened to my close friend and did as suggested. I listened to an amazing video by Anita Moorjani and started practicing her suggestions. I signed up for a conference (via zoom) and listened to Goldie Hawn talk about the importance of mindfulness.
Today I had over a dozen mindful moments, breathing and listening. I did my work, I worked on my book, listened to the birds and sounds of nature, appreciated what I did have, turned every negative thought I had into a positive and what an amazing day!
Sometimes we just need the simple reminder that we always have a choice. When I started to tell myself how hard it is, I said “No, it’s easy.” And it was.