Physical ailments? Love them to death!

I have always thought there was something wrong with me. The slightest pang or imbalance in my body would cause such intense anxiety and this in turn would create more physical ailments.

All of our fears and even our wounds can eventually end up in our body. For instance, my stomach is generally the home where my anxiety resides. I have battled stomach issues my whole life. . . from the time I was colicky in infancy to the doubled-over pain that can take me without notice. Years ago, after doing a bunch of tests and finding nothing wrong with me, I was recommended to a Naturopath by a friend. I have had some good experiences with Naturopaths and some bad, like when I was told to take hundreds of herbs and I spent thousands of dollars and didn’t get better.

I eventually settled on a Naturopath who really helped me, and gave me some tools, until it became more of a burden. Deep down I knew that what I really craved was an affirmation that I was OK. I liked the rush I felt when a person listened to my ailments, acknowledged they were real and had a plan of action to heal them. But even more importantly, I wanted to learn how to do that for myself. I wanted to give myself validation and stop looking outside of myself for healing.

As I have written before, I have healed myself at various times in my life doing energy work, affirmation and plain ole love. It was time . . . I was ready to be my own healer and love myself on a much deeper level. I wanted this vicious cycle to stop and so, in looking at the root cause of my pains and issues, I realized it was time to love my anxiety to death.

One day, when I was in a lot of pain and not getting better, I did a short meditation. I imagined a fork in the road. My regular doctor was on one path. My Naturopath was on the other path. And in the middle was neither. After taking a few breaths, I started to walk and the image that came to me was that I was being carried down the middle path. I took that to mean that my greater self would carry me and I needed to trust in myself. I started doing my own kinesiology, I stopped eating sugar and I got better. But even more importantly, I started to literally feel and breathe love straight into my gut . . . I started to feel great compassion and love for “anxious Kim,” and all she had lived through. My anxiety and fear started to diminish and I felt physically good and more in love with myself.

To truly love oneself is the greatest gift you can give to yourself and to the world. The layers continue to peel. What ails you? Take time to love it. . . Shine a light on it. You may uncover something beautiful.


About the author

Kim Hiles (Dancing Feather) was born in Pennsylvania in the 1960s. Her mother was from Germany and met her father while stationed there. The family moved several times before settling in a town called Millis, Massachusetts.

Kim developed severe anxiety and depression as a child and struggled to find her way. Growing up, Kim was told by her grandmother that she wrote beautiful letters and had a way with words. Later in life, this memory would be a catalyst for sitting down and writing her memoir.

Continuing to say yes to life, Kim talks about her struggles of addiction, anxiety, depression and relationship issues, to name a few. She considers it her life mission to help empower others and uses her memoir as a way to offer guidance in living a more authentic life, following your dreams.

She has overcome much adversity and enjoys walking with others as they find their way. Kim has also co-written a young adult fantasy with her husband Will, called Little Wonders. Their pen name is K.W. Hiles.

Kim is a successful Educator, Social and Emotional Learning Specialist, Behavior Specialist, Mediator (Restorative Practices), 3rd degree Reiki Practitioner, and blogs regularly. In addition Kim offers online classes at Shamanic Passages Institute

Kim is considered highly sensitive and intuitive. Utilizing her gifts, her mission is to channel inspiration and healing and help spread some light. Empowering others to create the life of their dreams is the ultimate goal.

Kim is happily married (21+ years) and lives with her husband, son and their animal companions.

"I had a teacher who told us to go out that week and see how many Mercedes cars we noticed. When I came back I told her I had seen a lot! She asked me if I had seen any junk cars. I told her I didn’t remember seeing any. The next week she reversed it and asked us to go out and see how many junk cars we noticed. Of course we noticed a lot but didn’t remember seeing any Mercedes cars. Where is your focus? Is it on the problem or on the solution and more importantly, where would you like it to be?" -- Kim Hiles

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