Spirit and I are one. I go through the fields aimlessly, searching, knowing I will arrive at my destination. I look at the trees, the birds, the beauty of Spirit’s creation. It is beautiful and I feel a oneness with all of life.

I stumble, I fall. Rocks are at my feet and I cannot seem to stand straight. I feel blind. I shout but nobody hears me. Nobody knows I am here for I have travelled alone. I see the clouds coming but I try to run away. I do not want to feel the rain on my body and see the darkness, which is following me, trying to engulf me. I continue to shout and there is nobody there.

On my journey I come across an old wise woman. She points me in a direction so I go. There was something in her eyes – I trusted and I continued walking. The path is endless and there seems no end. I could have sworn that I would have reached the end by now. I cannot go on! The pain, the loneliness, the isolation, the evil and rain storm following me is too much to bear. I cry.

I give up and surrender to whatever awaits me. I am ready to die and I do not care anymore. I don’t see beauty anymore. I don’t see the birds anymore. All I see is pain. I succumb to it – nothing matters anymore.

It is then, that an inner voice beckons me – I listen. Everything I am searching for – all of my answers – are already within me. I am reminded that I am one with Spirit. We are not separate but one. If I can just sit quietly and listen and, most of all, trust, then the doors of heaven will open. I will understand, I will know.

I am now silent. I now listen. I now trust and know that all is well. I have peace. I have serenity and, most of all, I know the truth and that truth is that Spirit and I are one. I am a perfect child of the Universe and I know my Truth. My Truth sets me free. Again, I enjoy the birds, the trees, all of life has to offer. And it is beautiful and welcoming. I see beauty in all I see and I am free….as free as the birds….for I know that the birds and I are one.

Copyright (c) 1994 Kimberly McCandless

About the author

Kim Hiles (Dancing Feather) was born in Pennsylvania in the 1960s. Her mother was from Germany and met her father while stationed there. The family moved several times before settling in a town called Millis, Massachusetts.

Kim developed severe anxiety and depression as a child and struggled to find her way. Growing up, Kim was told by her grandmother that she wrote beautiful letters and had a way with words. Later in life, this memory would be a catalyst for sitting down and writing her memoir.

Continuing to say yes to life, Kim talks about her struggles of addiction, anxiety, depression and relationship issues, to name a few. She considers it her life mission to help empower others and uses her memoir as a way to offer guidance in living a more authentic life, following your dreams.

She has overcome much adversity and enjoys walking with others as they find their way. Kim has also co-written a young adult fantasy with her husband Will, called Little Wonders. Their pen name is K.W. Hiles.

Kim is a successful Educator, Social and Emotional Learning Specialist, Behavior Specialist, Mediator (Restorative Practices), 3rd degree Reiki Practitioner, and blogs regularly. In addition Kim offers online classes at Shamanic Passages Institute

Kim is considered highly sensitive and intuitive. Utilizing her gifts, her mission is to channel inspiration and healing and help spread some light. Empowering others to create the life of their dreams is the ultimate goal.

Kim is happily married (21+ years) and lives with her husband, son and their animal companions.

"I had a teacher who told us to go out that week and see how many Mercedes cars we noticed. When I came back I told her I had seen a lot! She asked me if I had seen any junk cars. I told her I didn’t remember seeing any. The next week she reversed it and asked us to go out and see how many junk cars we noticed. Of course we noticed a lot but didn’t remember seeing any Mercedes cars. Where is your focus? Is it on the problem or on the solution and more importantly, where would you like it to be?" -- Kim Hiles

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