It IS what it IS

My dog was recovering from being spayed. Because of some of her issues, especially not knowing how to be walked yet, we needed to keep her contained in a small room for 12 days.  What the heck, I joined her.  She has pretty bad separation anxiety so I hunkered down next […]

Zelda, my Mirror

Self doubt is a perilous thing.  It seeps in, without us even being aware, causing confusion and mayhem.  Being in a contained room with my recently spayed Zelda is teaching me a lot about myself.  It’s the ole mirror mirror story I often tell. A little backstory.  Zelda is a […]

A walk with a dog

I have often spoken about how animals help heal our soul. I have a whole chapter dedicated to it in my book.  After my dog passed, I spent a year questioning if I should get another one or not. If I did a pros and cons list, it came out […]

Mindfulness

This whole pandemic, getting a rescue dog, other concerns I had . . . I was filled with intense anxiety. I started spiraling into that dark place, the place my shadow lives. It is an indescribable and lonely place filled with terror. Those were the words I used in trying […]

Pandemic Ponderings

When you feel unlovable it hits you like a sledge hammer knocking you to the ground. You instantly connect and remember every time you felt rejected, abandoned, left behind, ignored. You also remembered the times you pushed people away as if the idea of loving you was preposterous or just […]

Friday Musings

I thought I was going to do something amazing. I had so many dreams, ideas, passions . . . then life happened. Some of the dreams were created and some fell by the wayside. Sometimes I look around and I observe an old friend making a dream a reality. I remember […]

Run From Intimacy

Relationships and friendships have mostly been a disaster. As a young girl, I preferred a close friend over many. However, jealousy, feelings of disappointment, sensitivity, feelings of unworth and not a part of, however, went hand in hand.   Whether friend or lover, the push, pull sense of wanting what I […]